December became an eye opening month for me…with new changes on my list to incorporate this month it was made clear that I needed these changes to happen sooner than later. I needed to find a way to incorporate more comfort and joy back into my life. I needed to learn what it is to relax and to let go of the stress…because if I don’t, it will eat me alive…harsh to say that but boldly honest. We are notorious for always striving for more, more, more – more hours of work, more productivity, more money, more success but where does leave us at the end of the day?
It leaves us burnt out. And that’s where I was.
Christmas morning I awoke early…very early, four am kind of early. As much as I tried to get back to sleep, I couldn’t calm my mind enough to get back to sleep. So I got up and painted……It was releasing, it was comforting, it calmed the swirls in my mind by allowing them to flow out of me onto the canvas.
The week prior to Christmas, I cleaned out and rearranged with some help from my mom. I needed this in my life. My room celebrates me now, my artwork on the walls, my bed cozily tucked in the corner next to shelves filled with books and across my room on my dresser sits my diffuser with a soft glowing light as it emits Sacred Mountain and Cedar-wood scents into my room. It was the perfect new arrangement. My Christmas gifts from my family were also the perfect additions which included a large, super soft blanket for my bed and a cozy poncho made from alpaca wool.
My New Year’s Intentions.
The week of Christmas and New Year’s I made it a priority to reconnect with my family. Christmas night my cousins and I circled around the table and played a card game before my son and I retired home to Netflix binge a bit. The Friday after Christmas was celebrated with craft beers and Moscow Mules and new friends were made.
These were the memories I needed to wind out of 2018 with.
Going into the New Year, I have set words of intent for myself – Heal, Grow, Thrive – and through these intentions I will begin to give myself more of what I need more of in my life – comfort, simplicity, warmth, kinship, love, self-care and security – a deeper meaning back to my life, through a hygge lifestyle.
At midnight, I will toast with a glass of champagne and I will continue on this new journey of mine. I will replace the workaholic in me with a place for an opportunity of healing and I will replace late nights alone behind the computer for evenings chatting with friends and family over good meals. I will continue to work towards my goals but I will do it from a different place. I will do it from a place of comfort and calmness.